I’m Sorry …

The human heart has limits, folks.  We have limits to what we can absorb, how much we can feel before we finally just … burst.

Tonight, after many frustrating, sad, maddening news stories, after writing my post for this a.m., and just as I was about to head to bed, I got a notification that I had a Facebook message from one of my favourite people in this world, Rob Roland.  Rob used to live next door to us, and I always knew that as long as he was here in da hood, there was nothing and nobody that was going to hurt me or mine.  Though Rob stands about 6’8”, he always called me Grannie, always had a hug for me, and insisted that his three adorable little girls say “yes ma’am” or “no ma’am” when I asked them a question.  Rob’s wife Aundrea is a sweetheart and I love her dearly.  So tonight, even though it was after 3:00 a.m., and I was tired beyond even my norm, I needed to see what Rob had posted to me on Facebook.  And here is what I found …

“Granny why are people not talking about the slave trade in Libya? It seems like The Who world should be outraged that human beings are still being sold anywhere. I saw a video of one slave being beaten all over his body with a 2 by 4 while he was tied up Granny, then they stated stabbing the man on camera, it brought tears to my eyes Granny, why isn’t the world, the UN doing anything or even talking about this? Is outrageous.”

Rob, in case I didn’t mention it, is African-American.  Doesn’t matter, but it might explain why he sees things that I didn’t.  My friend Rebecca, who is Latino, then responded to Rob with this …

“Have you seen the Mexican man being beaten all over by a policeman in California? Yea, it happen today. I thought all that bigoted stuff happened in the east states… I guess we in the west we are also going to judged by the color of our skin. Trump and his hate policies are destroying our country. That’s why we care whats happening in America daily…period.”

Perhaps it is only because it is late, I am unusually exhausted, and have been dealing with some personal issues the last few days, but these two comments have brought me to tears and made me feel as if my heart is about to explode with sorrow.  I have failed both of these wonderful friends, for I have not reported on the slave trade in Libya, though I am and have been aware of it.  And I was not even aware of the Mexican man beaten by a policeman in California.

Donald Trump and his shenanigans occupy all my time, and despite my promise many years ago to write about social injustices around the world, I have failed.

Rob & Rebecca … I have let you both down.  I am sorry.

76 thoughts on “I’m Sorry …

  1. Dear Jill and friends,

    I empathize with your thinking that a lot of really important stories are not being covered even by the big guys because this wind bag living in the White House is sucking up all the media oxygen. We know he is suffering to watch others like Sen. McCain getting his due.

    I can’t tell you how many stories are out there that need attention. It used to be that the USA despite all its shortcomings was a leader in fighting human rights’ abuses and “human trafficking.”

    I, too, missed the story about the Mexican man beaten by a policeman in California.

    It is truly mission impossible to keep up with all the sh*t stories that are out there which deserve exposure.

    Please don’t beat yourself up over this. We need your voice out there.

    Hugs, Gronda

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  2. There are atrocities everywhere in the world and you are not responsible to keep track or comment on all of them. I do agree with one response, that T and his followers promote division, discrimination and hate. We in the US have been guilty of all the crimes mentioned by your two friends, as well. There are no excuses for this behavior and it seems, no solutions. I think you need to take some time off from the blog, get some rest. You are wonderful to keep us informed but you need to take a break. (Old lady advice) 🤗

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    • It seems that bigotry and hate are spreading across the globe, doesn’t it? You are right, I cannot keep up with everything and must not even try, else I will drive myself nuts (not to mention my poor family). Thank you for caring, my “old lady” friend! (I’m probably within a year of you!) Hugs!!!

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  3. Jill: you simply can not take on the entire world all by yourself. I know you are a crusader..it comes forth in every post you make. But you simply have to learn that sometimes you are going to miss an issue, an injustice, a horror…there are so many throughout the world. Your words make things better by opening the eyes of the blinded, by having people hear things they have ignored….but you simply must recharge yourself regularly in order to continue. There is absolutely nothing for you to feel guilty over..except I know that you undoubtedly do. Forgive yourself. I remember Charles Shultz (of Peanuts fame) once said in an interview:“Learn from yesterday, live for today, look to tomorrow – rest this afternoon.”. (I hope I quoted him properly). Rest. recharge. pamper and forgive yourself. Then you can “once more into the breach dear friend”……

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    • You are a wise woman, Suze! I was indeed exhausted last night when I got Rob’s and Rebecca’s messages, and it caught me off guard and took the wind right out of my sails. But, after some sleep, I realized that I am doing the best I can do, spending more than 12 hours a day writing, trying to make a difference, and I cannot do more. I love that quote, and you are the second person today to send me that one! I shall rest and recharge! Thank you so much for caring!

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  4. Jill, your compassion overwhelms all of us. You say you knew about the slave trade in Lybia, but I doubt Lybia is the only place there is a slave trade. If you look close enough at North America, you will find instances of people keeping undocumented workers as house slaves, keeping them from talking or escaping by threatening to send them back whence they came. Africa is full of slaves, some working for mere pennies a day to dig diamonds out of the earth, diamonds that make the owners rich. Sex slaves abound all around the world, and all of us know it, but few of us know how to fight it.
    What I am trying to say is that as much as we would like to see every person in the world walking free with their heads held high, there are people out there who care nothing about others, and only about themselves. Exposing the deeds breaks our hearts. Exposing the slave-masters helps end the slavery. Exposing the racism and hatred causes society to change. There are so many levels to attack these injustices on, no one can keep up. All we can do is keep on doing the best we can…
    You feel guilty, so take a few minutes to accept the guilt, realize what it means to you, and get back to your computer keyboard. You never know when this will all come out of you, but when it does, take pride. You are doing your best, what more can be asked of you…

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    • I know you are right. I was beyond exhausted, and it simply hit me harder to realize that I was so focused on Trump and our own troubles, that I hadn’t even thought about the many atrocities, not only the slave trade on the African continent, but many others, for over a year. I don’t feel so much guilty as just … sad, I think. But yes, I realize I am but one person and can only do so much. Right now, I am mainly engaged in trying to open the eyes of the bloomin’ Trumpeters so we can get rid of the Deteriorating Trash that is rotting us from within. I shall leave the rest to others for now. I am always my toughest critic, my friend. Thanks for caring!

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      • Is there truly a need to criticize yourself, Jill? I think not, no matter how tough you are on yourself. Remember you are human, and no human is perfect. Keep on trying, but if you don’t get there, we’re not going to hate you, or abandon you. For as long as you write, we will read.

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        • Maybe there is no need to criticize, but there is, I think, the need to periodically take a close look at ourselves and ask ourselves some tough questions: Am I doing the best I can do?; Am I doing this for the right reasons?; Is there something I could do better? Thank you, dear friend. I know you care, and I appreciate that! LuL

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          • There is a difference between asking tough questions and criticism. Tough questions teach us about ourselves, while criticism can teach of about our opinions of ourseves. Is there a difference. I think so, but you must answer for yourself, if you must answer at all.
            LuLaL.
            J

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  5. We all fall short , even the best of us , and you must preserve yourself to make your chosen task effective . Taking on too much can become a habit and it renders us less capable , more miserable , and less efficient.

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  6. Jill, they are all related. It’s the evil of racism and hate that is slowly but surely destroying everything. I feel a sense of it culminating into I don’t know what. But I feel it.
    It’s important what you and others here like Grondamorin and the secularjurist post here. All very important and none of you can report everything. There’s just too much. You donthe best you can and I’m sure many people appreciate your efforts.

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  7. Such awful happenings… such hatred all over the world…! The great thing is you are ‘trying’ and really concerned… and in your own way, trying to make a difference. More power to you and people like you!

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  8. You do a wonderful job here of making important issues known to people. It’s very hard for one person to cover them all. No one’s perfect, but you come close. Don’t be too hard on yourself. This post has just brought these two issues fully to my attention. I’ll now devout more time looking into them. You do a wonderful job here. Thank you.

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    • Thank YOU for such kind words and for being such a caring friend! I was amazed this morning when I woke up to see so many supportive and caring comments. I have some amazing friends on WordPress … thank you!

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  9. Unfortunately you cannot change the world by yourself… the only way you will let them down is if you stop typing… 🙂

    “The life I touch for good or ill will touch another life, and that in turn another, until who knows where the trembling stops or in what far place my touch will be felt.” Frederick Buechner

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  10. There are also limits at what you can address, Jill. “YOU” didn’t fail these people, “WE THE PEOPLE” failed them by making ourselves comfortable within these horrors as if they did not affect us. Humanity is grossly failing its claim at being human. Dry your tears and continue doing what you are doing. You’re one of my few American heroes, Jill.

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    • Thank you so much, Sha’Tara, for such kind words and for caring. Yes, i know … I sometimes forget, though, that I am but a human with needs for sleep, food, and time away from the rabbit hole, and it frustrates me. I lost my WonderWoman cape somewhere along the way! Thanks again … you’ve brightened my day a bit!

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  11. There are limited minutes in each hour and limited hours in each day…try as you will, and you have, you can only stretch so far within those limits. I concur with all of the comments written before me. I offer one bit of advice from Charles M. Schultz : “Learn from yesterday, live for today, look to tomorrow – rest this afternoon.” As always, Thank-YOU!

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    • Ah yes … those pesky limitations of time! I have concluded that somebody, most likely the U.S. government, has taken several hours out of each day, and where there were once 24 hours consisting of 60 minutes each, there is now only the equivalent of 19.7 hours! I keep trying to be faster and more efficient to make up for the time deficit, but there seem to be things interfering with that too! Thank you for being such a kind, caring friend, and for the great quote from Schulz! (Um … I wouldn’t even mention this, but for your snarkiness yesterday … you put the ‘T’ in Schulz’ name again 😉 ) Hugs!!!

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  12. Don’t be too hard on yourself though. If we open our minds and hearts, it’s a lifelong process and then some to learn about so many of the injustices in not just our country, but the world. The fact that you have such a hunger to learn about these injustices is commendable

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    • Thank you, Brendan! You are so very right … most of us have but a vague awareness, if that, of the atrocities that take place daily on the other side of the globe. And I am enough of a realist to know that those problems will never completely be eradicated, no matter how much we might wish it so. Humans … well, they are humans, need I say more?

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  13. In all honesty, it’s jarring to me when I’m reminded that there are people who are surprised by stories like this. Libya is a rather chaotic country and migrants from Sub-Saharan Africa have been passing through it for years on the way to try to get into Europe. It would be surprising if people weren’t taking advantage of that and exploiting the migrants. The states on the south side of the Persian Gulf have what pretty much amounts to slavery too.

    The really amazing thing about the world today is that in most countries slavery is illegal. Until two or three centuries ago every complex society on Earth had slavery, and had had it since the dawn of civilization, openly and unashamedly. In that sense, we’re living in a very unusual time.

    Between the Rohingya deportations, Boko Haram, the conflicts in the Congo, Dâ’ish (ISIL), repression in North Korea, persecution of gays all over the Middle East, family separation on the US-Mexico border, the Uighurs in Xinjiang, the way women are treated pretty much everywhere in Africa and Asia, etc., etc., etc., there are more “social injustices” going on than any one person could possibly discuss in a blog in any depth. Nobody can blame you for focusing on what you know about and on what, for whatever reason, concerns you the most.

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    • So true, we can’t take it all on board and have to come to tems with this. Perhaps it is a consolation that plenty of people do care in the face of evidence that the human race has always done terrible things to each other, despite the efforts of genuine religions, science and political ideals. What we can do is carry on preserving higher civilisation; the oasis where all can enjoy the arts, learning and nature in freedom.

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    • You are so right … there are far too many humanitarian crises worldwide for any one person to stay on top of. And we do have our share in this country. But when I am reminded of all the others, it is rather like a dark cloud above my head, for I want to do so much more than I am doing, than I could possibly do. I almost feel guilty for my relatively easy lifestyle … a warm home, ample food to eat, clothes to wear and books to read. But no, I’m not going to move to Libya and live in a hut! 😉

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  14. No need to aplogise, we all know about slavery to some extent and it could be in our own street, invisible, it works in many different ways. And it is not the fault of most of us who are worrying about it. It can be certain ethnic groups on the African continent enslaving others, it has been ‘travellers’ in Britain who prey on vulnerable or homeless men and take them off to work on remote farms and it can be Europeans who trick girls from their own country into going off to other countries to get work and end up as prostitutes. A first step has been people realising there is modern slavery, but what next?

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    • So very true, and I think most people have but a vague awareness of it, if that. I cannot write extensively on it, but I’m hoping that we can at least increase awareness. What next? I don’t know … the United Nations … an independent coalition of nations? I wish I did know. But I think it starts with enlightenment, then people demanding their own governments take the issue to the UN and make it a priority. So many terrible things in the world, and we really have no idea how to fix them. It’s frustrating.

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  15. Of all the people I know, you are the last one I can think of who has any reason to think she has fallen short. You can only do so much. None of us can solve all the world’s problems, sad to say. Hang in there and know you have dear friends who support you and appreciate all you do to help make the world a better place!

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  16. Dearest Jill, these are such awful and sad stories, and thank you for making us aware of them. Please don’t beat yourself up though. You take on so much of the wrongs in this world and voice them so much to keep people aware of the tragedies unfolding that you are bound to feel a heaviness descend on you. You are tired because it is such a heavy task that you take on… A bourdon that most people cannot carry because it would cause a mental breakdown of despair at how little we can do to stop the evil in our world. Please, please allow yourself breathing space. These latest stories are close and personal, so you need time away to digest. Give yourself some time off to do so and perhaps you can just repost some of Gronda’s, Keith’s, Hugh’s or other people’s posts for a few days while you busy yourself in towel folding. Stay away from the awful stuff for a while. It will still be here when you get back, but you need the strength to face it! ❤️❤️❤️

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    • Hah!!! You know me too well! This morning, it was not towel folding but fixture cleaning that took my mind off the news for a few hours! I cleaned the hanging lamp in the kitchen, the refrigerator, moved everything off the counters to clean & bleach them, and started on the cabinet fronts, but realized I was hungry, and once I ate, I no longer had the motivation to clean anymore 😀 Thank you for caring … you are such a good friend. Hugs!!!

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  17. Yes, there are terrible things happening all over the world, but if the US is to be the defender of the weak again, it has to put its own house in order first. Trump has blown up this boil and it’s spewing pus all over the place. If time simply places a bandaid over the boil, it will keep on festering. This boil needs to be cauterised and that means no more apathy. So…you are doing what you can, where you can. Sleep, eat, rest and fight again. -hugs-

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  18. I echo Patty, Jill. I read in my (real) paper today that we all need 3 weeks’ holiday a year (and 8 hours sleep a night) if we are not to die ‘young.’
    Ha ha ha ha, choking laughing. Young? 3 weeks’ holiday?
    When did you last give yourself more than a day or two’s time off? I know it gets so you can’t see anything beyond the trees, but there is a wood and beyond that open countryside and beaches and rivers and SKY – sometimes you can go for a walk outside in it… Having said all that, I had reached a similar sort of point myself, writing lovely-lovely stuff about nature and smiling-nice-humans when the world is such a mess… So I’ve started to dip my toe back into ranting territory, am writing a post (very tame by comparison with this I must say) that kept me awake last night.
    Take care of yourself, you are doing a great job but we can all take breaks along with you now and then! And we’ll be back refreshed…
    Big hugs Mx

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    • I damn near choked on my coffee … THREE WEEKS??? EIGHT HOUR??? Who are they kidding? I think I’ve slept half the day away on those rare occasions I sleep 5-6 hours! And if I took 3 weeks off, they would have to shoot me with a tranquilizer gun after the first 2 days! I did take a day off a few months ago, though. 😉 Don’t worry, my friend … for once in my life, at least I feel like I’m trying to do some good in this world, so though I live mired in angst sometimes, I am content. And … I have those lovely nature walks with you to enjoy when I pop my head up from the rabbit hole. 🏕️ Thanks for caring, my dear friend! Hugs!!!

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  19. Jill, please don’t take this on! Anyone that knows you, knows your commitment to injustice ….here in the U.S. and around the world! You are making a difference!!!! You can’t save everyone! I grieve ….the torture and death of innocent people and I know you feel the same. You can’t carry the weight of all of this suffering on your shoulders! There are only so many hours in a day! Please don’t blame yourself!!!! You can’t be all things to all people! As it is , you are stretched thin! Rob is upset about what’s happening in Libya and rightly so, but you’re doing the best you can to cover as much ground ….as you can!
    Please be kind to yourself, my dear passionate friend! 💙 HUGS!

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