11 September 2020 … Memories

With the exception of 2018, I have published this post each year since 2015 on September 11th, sharing memories of that day in 2001 when life changed, my thoughts and reflections.  I planned to write a new one this year, but as I read over it, I realized that I cannot say it any better today than I said it five years ago, and frankly, amidst the rubble of chaos, turmoil and divisiveness in our nation today, inspiration simply did not come to me.   I’ve come to realize that not only did we not learn the lessons of that day, but that in every way imaginable, the United States has become a much crueler, harsher, less respected and less respectable nation today than it was in 2001.  I skipped my 9/11 post in 2018, for I felt that amidst the chaos and divisiveness of this nation, it had lost its relevance.  I was wrong … we need to remember … we must not forget, we must look in the mirror and ask ourselves if we have learned anything in the 19 years since our world turned upside down in a matter of 102 minutes.


911-cover-4Nineteen years ago.  It seems so much longer … another lifetime.  And yet … and yet, it seems like such a short time ago. I remember the morning well.  A key staff member was on vacation and I had to cover, so I arrived at work well before dawn, but I stepped outside sometime between 8:30 and 9:00 for a smoke break.  The sky was the bluest I could recall ever seeing it and I thought it must be the most perfect day ever.  Within a half-hour, I would be left in tears, cursing the day, hoping to awaken from this nightmare.

911-cover-9I went back inside from my smoke-break, and an employee, Susie, came up to me and asked if I had heard about the plane that crashed into the World Trade Center.  If the building I worked in then had not since been demolished, I could show you the exact tile I was standing on at that moment, just as I could tell you that when we received news of the assassination of JFK, I was at home plate with bat in hand, waiting for the pitch that would never come.  Just as my grandfather often told exactly where he was and what he was doing when the news of the attack on Pearl Harbour came over ‘the wireless’. You think it is a literary trick when an author says “time stood still”?  Well, I can tell you … for me, time did stand still, as I must have also.  I seemed to have lost all feeling, all senses shut down … I could not hear nor see.  After that, it all blurs into a series of news updates … a 2nd plane, then the Pentagon, then a field in Shanksville, Pennsylvania, the name Usama bin Laden.  A gathering in the cafeteria, a television rolled into another room where we all gathered.  Financial statements, payroll, printing presses and the like forgotten for the moment.  Tearful phone calls home to the girls.  Then day after day, glued to the television every waking moment.  In my household, we had a then-6-year-old and finally had to turn to Nickelodeon, but the images remained in our eyelids, in our hearts, in our souls. And the tears never stopped.

911-cover-2Today we mark the 19th memorial of that awful day.  We do so in many ways, but the saddest thing for me is that we did not learn the lessons we needed to learn from that tragedy.  Today, our nation is more divided than ever.  In the days and weeks that followed what would become known simply as 9/11, it seemed we were on the right path.  People from all over the nation and Canada traveled to Ground Zero to help with search and rescue, and eventually cleanup operations.  Shopkeepers gave out free food and water.  People helped neighbors, friends and strangers.  We all empathized with each other, treated each other a little kinder, gave a bit more freely of our hugs and kind words.

Compare and contrast to today, when we are a nation divided by hatred, divided by a lack of understanding for those who do not look, act or think like us.  And there are many who blame today’s vitriolic environment on 9/11, those who decided to hate all who share a religion with the plotters and perpetrators of the horrific acts of 9/11.  But it doesn’t stop there … our nation has renewed its call for racial discrimination, religious intolerance, and hatred of those who are perceived as ‘different’ in one way or another.  We have lost our way.


That which “we will never forget” has already been forgotten by some, it would seem.  A mattress company releases the following ad:

“Right now, you can get any sized mattress for a twin price!” says a grinning woman flanked by two employees in the 20-second spot. She flings her arms out and the men tumble backwards, knocking over two tall piles of mattresses. The woman screams “Oh my God!” in mock panic, then immediately recovers her composure and adds, with a half-smile: “We’ll never forget.”  It quickly attracted local, then national outrage. The ad was taken down, and Mike Bonanno, the owner of Miracle Mattress, issued the following statement:  “I say this unequivocally, with sincere regret: the video is tasteless and an affront to the men and women who lost their lives on 9/11.” 

How did he not realize how “tasteless” it was before it aired?

9-11One Wal-Mart, in conjunction with Coca-Cola, erected a display to “commemorate” the 9/11 anniversary.  It was taken down after much criticism.  And other companies have also tried to use 9/11 for sales and profit.  It is not a commercial holiday. We do not celebrate with hot dogs and beer. It is a day of national mourning.  It is a day of solemnity.  Commercialism has no place on this day, no right to use it as a gimmick.  Can you imagine Pearl Harbor, or the assassination of President John F. Kennedy being commercialized?  There was one commercial ad that truly was a tribute to the day.  It aired only once, in 2002.  I still find it to be a beautiful tribute and it still brings tears.  Please take just one minute to watch it.

Before airing the commercial, Anheuser-Busch sought and received approval from Congress, as well as then-mayor of New York City, Rudy Giuliani. There is no company logo until the end, and since it aired only once, given the cost of producing the ad, the company made no profit from it, nor did they intend to. It truly feels like a tribute rather than a cheap shot. It was tasteful … respectful.

Positive, Encouraging, Hopeful Messages

In 2016, in a rare display of partisanship, 200 members of Congress stood on the steps beneath the recently restored Capitol dome and prayed, observed a moment’s silence and, accompanied by a marine band, sang God Bless America to mark the imminent anniversary of the September 11 terrorist attacks. The remembrance ceremony, with Democrats and Republicans standing side by side, was heartening, though it would have been much more so had all 535 members of Congress participated.  Will we see that repeated this year?  I doubt it.

I understand that Donald Trump and Joe Biden both plan to attend a 9/11 memorial held at the field in Shanksville, Pennsylvania today.  In my opinion, politics has no place in this ceremony or others, and Trump only desecrates the day with falsehoods, as I can never forget that after the towers fell, he bragged that now his was the tallest building in the city.

I end where I began, by saying that we have lost our way, we have failed to learn from this, and to some extent we have failed to keep our promise to “never forget”.  The nation is more bitterly divided, more everything-phobic today than it was prior to 11 September 2001.  Rather than embracing our differences, we are using them as an excuse for hatred.  Rather than loving our fellow man, we are killing him.  Unless we learn to unite and work together for the sake of not only our nation, but of humanity, we are doomed to repeat the past. I would ask the readers of this blog to do this one thing:  be kind today, do not put anyone down, offer a smile to any you see, and hug your family just a little tighter today … just for today. Below are just a few pictures I would like to share, to remind us all of that day.




Marcy Borders, the ‘dust lady’, sadly died 25 August 2015 of cancer related to 9/11

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25 thoughts on “11 September 2020 … Memories

  1. Thank you for sharing and remembering, Jill! Sorry, here (European Union, GER) there was less official remembrance. One is discussing the help for the refugees in Greece, and maybe producing further sad situations. ;-( Be well and stay save. Michael

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    • Thank you, Michael. Here there weren’t as many official ceremonies as in the past, for the pandemic and the upcoming election are the biggest topics today. Even the refugee crisis here has been largely forgotten amidst the chaos that is Donald Trump. Sigh. I will stay safe, Michael … thank you!!! Cheers!


  2. Jill,
    Thanks for sharing this. It is so tragic that innocent people going to work after hugging their loved ones goodbye, lost their lives. The company I worked with had about 2,800 people in the towers. About 280 did not make it. One of the survivors walked home and it took three hours for the company to reach her to find out if she was OK. The stories of the first responders go beyond the call. Thanks for remembering.

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    • The greatest single-moment tragedy of our lifetimes. Yes, the pandemic has taken more lives and is perhaps a bigger tragedy, but 9/11 was … as you say … one minute you’re hugging them goodbye, telling them to have a nice day at the office, and an hour later … gone. We weren’t aware that my cousin had been in Windows of the World for a business breakfast for several days after 9/11 … I think it was on the third day that his company notified his wife, who had no idea he was there. And yes, even today the first responders are dying from a variety of diseases related to Ground Zero. It still makes me cry … perhaps it always will.

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      • Jill, it is sad to learn of someone you know that just happened to be in the tower. Or, you may learn someone who had a meeting canceled or was out of town that day. The stories abound and heart touching. Keith

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  3. I remember where I was on that day and I remember crying later when I found out how many firemen died trying to save others. I’m glad my father, a retired fireman, hadn’t lived to see that day. I know I’ll never forget. —- Suzanne

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  4. Timely reminder Jill.
    This was the most high-profile, vivid and largest single loss of life in the horrid road of terrorist actions which take the lives of non-complicit non-combatants and then try and justify the slaughter.
    The bitterest memory I have is not the day itself, that was shocking, numbed the senses or even the following day when the death toll of the rescue services.
    Mine unravelled like this, within a week I was looking at all the moving editorial cartoon from various USA newspapers, I kept a link, then lost it. A year later I googled 9/11 cartoons and found the search replete with conspiracy sh** ,anti-Semitic and downright racist crap. To think, within a year the event was tarnished with more hate and stupidity. Even now I have to rein myself in every time I encounter another ‘truther’ comment on someone else’s blog lest a tirade starts.
    9/11 > Iraq > Afghanistan > Conspiracy Crap > Trump. That encompasses the whole damn tragedy.

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    • Thanks Roger. Yes, it still amazes and infuriates me that some people buy into this crap. For a short few weeks, the people of this country united, cared a little bit more, but then the nasties came out of the woodwork. I think very few actually buy into the conspiracy theories, but … that any do is maddening. The same is true of the Holocaust … how many people are still in denial that the Holocaust happened? Sigh. 🐺

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      • I ran into some Truthers once and messed with their heads suggesting their were shills for the CIA/FBI who had set up the Conspiracy Theory systems as a means to cover up the ineptitude on the entire security apparatus in not catching the 9/11 cells when warning signs were there a plenty.
        At least Holocaust Denial is illegal in some countries and a big slur in most others. Most of those who spout this are Anti-Semitic- period and it’s no use them trying to deny that!

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        • Heh heh … who knew you could spin an all-new conspiracy theory!!! I bet you had some fun with that one! Yes, the Holocaust deniers here are largely bigots and anti-Semitic, and there aren’t many who pay them much attention, but every now and then they raise their ugly heads.

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          • We got ’em by the truck load over here. It’s a European thing, only a lot of ours claim to be socialists and pretend they are so concerned about the plight of the Palestinians and are not anti-Semitic. Which is a load since if they were that concerned they would be able to name at least on political movement in Israel which is against the Government stance in the Occupied Territories…they can’t. As far as they are concerned all Israelis deserve to be vilified. Talk about hypocrites! Traitors to the cause of International Socialism.

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              • Yeah like the ones who howl about the bias in the BBC reporting, when it boils down to it what they want is just their ‘version’ of the the news.
                It’s their excuse for why there are not Labour Governments – while in actual fact it’s down to:
                1. Their own inabilities to interact with everyone.
                2. Their adherence to their own prejudices.
                3. The wacky doodle conspiracy folk
                4. (The dirty secret) Men know best.
                Now bearing in mind these are on The Left…..
                What profile does that remind you of in the USA


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