Filosofa Checks In …

One of the many things I have learned over the past month or so is that once the body hits the 70-year mark, the warranty expires on all its parts.  I should’a read the fine print.  I keep hoping to be able to start my post with … “Filosofa Rides Again!” … or something equally energetic, but I’m not there yet, folks.  They tell me that patience is the key, that at my age, healing takes time, but patience has never been my strong suit and mine has been stretched beyond its limits, driving my mind into a dark and foreboding place.

Another thing I’ve learned is that healthcare in the U.S. is seriously broken.  It has become so compartmentalized, so ‘specialized’, that the patient is no longer given even minimal consideration.  But I’ll have more on that another time.

Anyway, I really miss my blog, miss my blogging family, miss the interactions among us.  And yes, I have been keeping up with what is happening on the U.S. political scene, and it seems that old adage is true:  The more things change, the more they stay the same.  The same issues are at hand today with the same tired cast of characters as when I first became ill a month or more ago.  And the anti-vaxxers are still mistakenly interpreting their ‘rights’ as being whatever they want them to be at a given time.

Though I’m still far from ‘back in the saddle’, I plan to try to write a short post every other day or so … I think it might help me crawl out of the dark, dark place my mind resides in these days.

And finally, thank you all for the well-wishes and heartfelt concern you’ve sent me via comments and email.  I apologize for not having answered each one individually, but know that your thoughts brought a smile to my face and warmed my heart.

A New Short Update

Hello dear friends.

I know David updated you all earlier this week and let you know that I was back in the hospital after being out only 12 hours last Friday. It seems this old body fell apart when it hit 70 and the docs keep finding more things broken. As of now, it looks like I won’t be going home until at least Saturday.

Thank you all for the outpouring of love and well-wishes … you cannot possibly know how much it means to me. For those who have requested my email address it is: dennisonjill@aol.com

I truly hope to be back at my usual snarky self by the end of the month … I already have ideas burning in my head! Thank you again for all your support.

Love ‘n hugs from Filosofa

Brief Update …

As many of you know, I have spent this week in the hospital.  I was discharged this afternoon, they say my heart, lungs and kidneys are improving, but I am far from feeling better.  I hope to get back up to speed on ye olde blog next week, but it will likely be slow going.  I appreciate you sticking with me through this difficult time and I promise to be back in the saddle soon.  Thanks for your patience and understanding.

Love ‘n hugs from Filosofa

On A (Brief) Personal Note …

So many of you have expressed your concern over recent health issues that I thought a very brief update was warranted.  Yesterday, I finally consented to see the doctor, fully expecting to find I had some form of infection, be given antibiotics, and sent home.

Turns out, I have a fairly serious heart condition that will require a bit more than a round of anti-biotics.  After hours of tests, I refused the hospital’s generous offer to spend the night and came home.  My primary care provider obtained the test results today and has called in prescriptions that I will start tonight, after my bank account is fully drained.  I will be fine … and I should, according to my internal calculations, be fully back in the saddle by early next week.  Meanwhile, I will post here when I can, though it may not be full speed just yet.  This blog and my blogging friends & family mean too much for me to simply set it aside.

Thanks to all for the well-wishes … I love you all!

The U.S. Has Lost Its Collective Conscience

Today, I am deeply disappointed in a large portion of this nation.  Oh, there are many reasons, but my current angst is fueled by some responses I have read and heard to the testimony of the four police officers before the House Select Committee investigating the January 6th insurrection on Tuesday.

First, I would like to ask that you watch this 8-minute interview Don Lemon did with Officer Michael Fanone yesterday.  Lemon plays a clip of a voicemail that Officer Fanone received during the time he was testifying and … it is so vile, so disgusting, so cruel … but I think it’s important to understand how a certain segment of our society thinks.  My apologies, but I cannot embed this video, however here is the link:

Don Lemon interview with Officer Michael Fanone

Tragic and disgusting.  Officer Fanone and every other officer who defended the Capitol and protected our lawmakers on that day are heroes, and yet this is how we treat them???

And then there were a multitude of comments from a variety of sources.  I won’t give the people who uttered these comments the attention they seek by mentioning their names, only their words …

  • Corrections officers around the country get the shit kicked out of them and their faces slashed many times yearly by violent inmates, yet you never see any of them crying like a little bitches at congressional hearings.
  • I am shocked at the cowardice. They should be fired – not fit for duty.
  • Cowards all.
  • Did they not even practice their fake crying before this hearing?
  • Let’s hear the testimonies of the cops from Philadelphia, New York, Denver, Portland and all the other cities who had to deal with BLM/ANTIFA riots last summer.
  • What a pussy. “You guys won, you held.” Um, people weren’t there to do anything, they got bored and left. That’s because it wasn’t an insurrection and more than half the people there walked in open doors with the permission of the police.

Some of the people uttering this filth are our elected officials, others are media ‘personalities’.  But the comment that disturbed me the most, I think, came from one of my own readers, a man I consider a friend, Scott Lawlor …

“this was not an insurrection, it was mostly peaceful people going to make their voices heard on results they didn’t agree with. now, for the record, anyone who broke the law, which was a minority by the way, should absolutely be prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law.

they took their grievances to the seat of power, which is a better thing to do than, oh, I don’t know, burn buildings, attack people and steal, like blm and antifa did last summer causing around 2 billion dollars in property damage. The democrats in this hearing are just a bunch of crybabies, you can tell the emotionalism is all fake and for show. We weren’t an hour away from marshal law, AOC wasn’t fearing for her life since she wasn’t even there, this is just all lies and propaganda by the democrat elites and the media to paint every single republican and conservative as a brainless white supremacist and I am sick and tired of the intollerence from these elitists who believe the narrative and continue to give voice to their obvious disdain for anyone who may thing differently from them.

It’s a free country and just as a progressive can say, write, and think anything they want, I have the freedom to disagree with those thoughts but it seems to me that it’s the democrats who are more intollerant than any conservatives I know.”

He then included a video put out by The Rubin Report titled “Shameful Theatrics” whereby Dave Rubin basically echoes what Scott said, only took far longer to say it.  I must admit that it seems to me people in this country no longer care about truth, about facts, about fairness and I despair for the future of this country.  People hear someone like Tucker Carlson or Dave Rubin giving their own distorted view of the facts, whether about the COVID vaccine or Black Lives Matter or voting rights or the January 6th insurrection (and yes, it WAS an insurrection!) and they become as parrots, chirping that opinion to others, mindless of the facts.

It is a pitiful reflection on a nation when facts are thrown in the trash and sensationalism becomes the norm, when heroes who save lives are denigrated, and when truth is mocked.

Anti-Vax Lunacy

I am as stubborn as they come, but I am fully vaccinated.  Why, you ask?  Because I believe that while I have every right to take chances with my own life, I have absolutely NO RIGHT to put others in danger.  It’s called ‘having a social conscience.’  It’s called ‘caring about others.’  It’s called ‘doing the right thing.’

I am appalled by those who have cited every excuse in the book for refusing to be vaccinated against COVID.  This pandemic has killed over 4 million people around the world … 623,029 in the United States, as of this writing, though by the time you are reading it, the number will be even higher.  And WE … You and I … have the key to stopping it in our hands.  If we fail to use that key, then we are complicit in those deaths.

The excuses are myriad and utterly without merit … in other words, the excuses are the epitome of stupidity.  Here are just a few (along with my non-scientific, sometimes snide rebuttals in blue):

  • We don’t know what the long-term side effects are. (So?  We DO know what the long-term effects of the coronavirus are … one of which is death!)
  • The vaccine might hurt my fertility. (So???  The world is already over-populated and with climate change, food and water resources are getting scarcer by the day … you don’t need any more kids!)
  • It’s none of your business if I don’t get vaccinated. (Oh hold on just a second there, madame!  It is the business of every single person on this planet!  We are, in case you haven’t noticed, all in this together!  Wake up and smell the f*cking coffee!)
  • I’m young and healthy, so I don’t need to get vaccinated. (Ha ha ha ha ha ha … first, ask some of the young people who are still suffering symptoms months after getting COVID.  Second, you can still transmit it to others … do you have parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, teachers???  Why not think of somebody besides yourself just for once?)
  • These vaccines only have emergency use authorization, not full FDA approval. (Yeah, and your point is?  Do you realize how long full FDA approval takes?  Do you see the drop in cases since the vaccine has been widely accepted?  )
  • I don’t want to get Covid-19 from the vaccine. (Oh for Pete’s sake … you cannot get COVID from the vaccine! None of them contain so much as a smidge of the actual virus!)
  • My faith will protect me, so I don’t need to get vaccinated. (My jaw drops on this one.  A lot of the 3,000+ people who died in the planes, in the World Trade Center, and in a field in Shanksville, Pennsylvania on September 11th, 2001, had faith even stronger than yours and it did not protect them.  Faith is a state of mind, it will not protect you from real world situations.  How ‘bout you take my hand and let me lead you to that nice doctor over there who can ‘splain this to you better than I can?)
  • I might not be able to afford a vaccine. (It’s free, stupid. The government is footing the bill on this one, for they want you to stay alive, though I have no idea why!)

And those are just the relatively sane excuses!  Others run along the lines of conspiracy theories such as Bill Gates has arranged to implant some sort of microchip into your body via the vaccine, or it’s a government plot to turn your brain into spinach soufflé.  (Note to readers … anybody who believes the conspiracy theories brain is already spinach soufflé or oatmeal … not sure which)

The propaganda network, Fox “News”, has played a large role in instigating the anti-vaccine movement and in my book, some of the deaths we are seeing today are on their hands.  Not only the brainless Tucker Carlson, but other Fox ‘hosts’ have denigrated the vaccine, urged their not-so-bright viewers to ‘resist’ the call to be vaccinated … this despite the fact that Rupert Murdoch, the owner of Fox, was vaccinated last December!  YO RUPERT … find your conscience … I think I saw it standing outside your broker’s office on Wall Street!

The US averaged about 19,455 coronavirus cases over the last seven days, a 47% increase over the previous week. Fully a third of those are coming from five hot spots: Florida, Louisiana, Arkansas, Missouri and Nevada, all states with low vaccination rates.

Generally speaking, I would argue that what goes into my body is my choice.  However, I make my choices based on a myriad of informed sources, I respect scientific data, and I understand that sometimes we must make decisions without having perfect information.  With that said, I could see no alternative other than to become vaccinated.  But, until the rest of the nation opens their eyes, this nation will continue to see new cases, new variants, new protective mandates, and yes, new deaths.  Those who continue to hold out, who continue to argue and engage in conspiracy theories that don’t even make sense, will keep this nation under COVID’s thumb.

A Different World

I was never a sci-fi fan, apart from watching Star Trek on television with Leonard Nimoy and the rest.  But, I now find myself in an alternate universe … at least, I suppose that’s where I am.  I remember dying in my bed a few nights ago … or what seems like only a few nights ago, though it might have been only minutes, or it might have been years, for time has ceased to exist.

At any rate, I remember dying peacefully, thankfully, and then the next thing I remember is being … here.  Wherever ‘here’ is.  I suppose it must be another planet in another solar system somewhere, for nothing here resembles Earth.  There are numerous species of beings here, some very similar to the foxes, squirrels, and birds found on Earth, but others being completely alien to me.  But, the wonderful thing about this place is that there are NO HUMANS!!!  There is a species of being called Namu that is very similar to humans, but with only the good things like opposable thumbs, and none of the bad!

Here, there are no churches, no religion, and nobody making up ridiculous laws that drive people into crime.  The Namu walk upright like humans, have very human-like movements and speech, but are covered in a very fine, soft fur, of a variety of colours, making them far more attractive than humans back on Earth.  But there is no difference made, nobody to say that, “Oh, this fur colour is superior to that one.”   There must be genders, for otherwise how would the species continue, but I’ve seen nothing to distinguish ‘male’ from ‘female’, and they all treat one another exactly the same.  It’s … simply amazing!  The sort of world I’ve always wanted to live in!

When I first dropped into this planet, I didn’t realize that I looked just like the other Namu, for I thought I was still a human.  But oddly, when a couple of Namu came walking toward me, I felt no fear, and when they spoke, I understood everything they said!  Thinking … or not thinking … that I needed to find out where I was and how I got here, I asked the pair to “take me to your leader”.  They laughed the most delightful laugh I think I have ever heard!  And then the Black one said, “You must have been a human on planet Earth in your last life, am I right?”, though in Namuian which, by some quirk of fate, I understood perfectly well.  He then proceeded to tell me that there are no leaders, that on this planet/nation of Neebos everyone is the same, we all help each other, nobody tries to hurt another or take that which doesn’t belong to him, and thus there is no need for government, police, military, or any other body to make rules.

My head, by this time, was swirling and I had so very many questions to ask these people!  How does your economy work?  How did I get here?  Where are your houses?  What do you eat, and where do you buy it?  And the burning question:  Does anybody have a cigarette I can borrow???

In time, I was to get all the answers … all but for the last one, for it seems that Namus do not indulge in either smoking or drinking, and in fact they were fascinated by my description of both.  Perhaps I shouldn’t have shared that knowledge with them … I hope I have not begun the momentum that leads them … us … down a destructive path, but I don’t think I have, for they are pretty smart, level-headed creatures.

With time, my questions were answered, mostly by sheer observation, sometimes by Namus were willing to listen to what must have seemed the ramblings of a madwoman, and talk to me, explain life on their planet which I now know is called Neebos.

I am told that in just a short while, my memories of my past life and place will be gone and it will be as if I’ve never known another way of life besides being Namu, so I am trying to hurry, for I want to let you all know about this place, and that a species with a developed brain, thought processes, skills, and even opposable thumbs can be kind, compassionate, non-competitive, helping, non-political, and all the things I wished for when I was a human earthling.  I’ve been here only a matter of … what … hours?  What seems like hours, or maybe days … and already I love this place.  This is the sort of world I always hoped humans would work toward, but … they let their arrogance and greed get in the way, they saw people as inferior to them, they were taught to follow false prophets and adhere to rules made by men for their own purposes of power and greed.  And ultimately, they decided to simply kill those they feared and loathed.  Where I am today, wherever this place is, brings so much more joy that I hope some day you, too, can come to Neebos, where there is no hatred, no bigotry, no politics and no war.  Better yet, perhaps somehow you can change humans to be more like the Namu.

It’s true, my friends … it’s all possible.  If a Namu falls down, every other Namu in sight rushes to help him up.  If he is in need of food, all his neighbors will bring him food.  There are no schools, for Namu are born with perfect knowledge of their history, the science of life, and much more.  As I write, I feel my memories of being human fading … I cannot quite remember what I looked like, why I was so angry all the time.  So, it is time for me to end this letter that I hope will find its way back to Planet Earth, to let you know that … that … there is a better way of life, but you have to want it, have to … have to … work for … it … and now, I must go … Hasta la vista my friends.


Note to readers:  This is purely a work of fiction that popped into my head from who-knows-where!

Open Letter To Every Republican Senator

Dear Republican Senator …

YOU had the unique opportunity to pass legislation that would have protected mine and others’ right to vote for the foreseeable future, and you stupidly passed up that opportunity for reasons that are completely incomprehensible to me and my fellow citizens.

When you took that Oath of Office and swore to uphold the U.S. Constitution, did you think it was a joke?  Did you think you were just saying words that had no meaning, that carried no responsibility?  Why did you even run for office if you had no intention of acting in the best interests of the nation and the people who live here, who work their asses off to survive and pay their taxes so that you can be paid every month?  It appears to me that you did not run for office because you wanted to help this nation or the people, but only so you could take donations from wealthy corporations to feather your own nest.

You, Senator, do not deserve the position you hold, the office you occupy.  The people who you have caused grievous harm to are people like me … the elderly, college students, Black and Hispanic people, and single working mothers.

I sincerely hope that one way or another, you are forced out of the United States Senate and soon, for you have let the people of this country down, you have been derelict in your duties, and you are a greedy, racist person who I have lost any respect I once had for.  I do not respect you or any of your republican cohorts in the United States Congress.  You failed miserably today, and you have no excuse … not a single one of you even voted to debate the bill!  Do you really hate the people you represent that much such that you will not even spend a few hours considering protecting our rights?

I expect a reply to this letter … it is the very least that you can do, since you have robbed me of my constitutional rights and made me wish I lived anywhere but this ‘shithole country.’

Sincerely,

Jill Dennison – citizen, taxpayer, VOTER

Thoughts From The Mind of Filosofa

I seem to have a real knack for getting ‘punished’ by the great Tweety god, aka Twitter aka Jack Dorsey and his robocrew.  I find it hilarious that Margie Greene, Matt Gaetz, Don Junior, Lindsey Graham and the rest can say pretty much whatever they wish, but when I make what I consider an innocuous reply to a post, I am suspended.  Here’s what happened …

The two-faced toadie Lindsey Graham made a really stupid comment whereby he said that …

“If Trump was right about the lab leak, it would change the image the public had of President Trump regarding the Coronavirus …”

I nearly choked on my laughter when I saw that one, and immediately just had to respond with …

No, Stupid, Trump is still single-handedly responsible for the more than 600,000 U.S. deaths, as he kept telling us it was “no big deal” and would be gone, and to just drink bleach. Your ‘hero’ is a madman who deserves the death penalty that he gave to this nation.

Had I not been limited to the 270 character limit, I could have done even better!  Now, you’ll note that nowhere did I call for violence or for an insurrection as some have done.  However, in less than 20 seconds, I received the following notice …

Hi Jill Dennison,

Your account, @GrannieJ has been locked for violating the Twitter Rules.

Specifically for:

Violating our rules against promoting or encouraging suicide or self-harm.

You may not promote or encourage suicide or self-harm. When we receive reports that a person is threatening suicide or self-harm, we may take a number of steps to assist them, such as reaching out to that person and providing resources such as contact information for our mental health partners.

If you are having thoughts of self-harm, suicide, or depression, we encourage you to please reach out to someone and request help. Our Safety Center has a list of resources you can consult for a variety of reasons, including depression, loneliness, substance abuse, illness, relationship problems, and economic problems. You can find those resources here: https://about.twitter.com/safety/safety-partners.html#mental-health/us.

Please know that there are people out there who care about you, and that you are not alone.   

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Jill Dennison

@GrannieJ

No, Stupid, Trump is still single-handedly responsible for the more than 600,000 U.S. deaths, as he kept telling us it was “no big deal” and would be gone, and to just drink bleach. Your ‘hero’ is a madman who deserves the death penalty that he gave to this nation.         

Please note that repeated violations may lead to a permanent suspension of your account. Proceed to Twitter now to fix the issue with your account.

Where in the Sam Hell did they get the idea that I was suicidal???  They didn’t even have time to read the f*cking message, let alone to ponder its meaning!  I took my comment down, but then when I tried to simply ‘like’ a post by Bro, it popped up the same message, saying that my account is suspended for 12 hours!  I don’t care, I think it’s funny and I was soon headed to bed anyway, but I DO care in the sense that many people have said much worse than I and not been ‘punished’.  This is my third suspension from these jackals … Jack Dorsey is now on my shit list … and as soon as my suspension is lifted, I shall let him know it!  Stay tuned!


Y’know, folks … I’ve said to more than one person of late that this nation has let me down, that I am so disappointed in the people of this nation, that it is no longer a country that I recognize.  Racism, guns, the Big Lie, and more have darkened my view of the country I’ve spent 70 years in.  My dilemma is whether to try to escape to either Canada or the UK, likely saving my life, or to stay and fight, to keep trying to wake the ignorant masses and inject just a spot of remorse into the politicos.  And then I remember the words of the late, great Maya Angelou.  I would like to share those words with you today, ask you to think about them, decide whether you will rise …

Still I Rise

Maya Angelou – 1928-2014

You may write me down in history

With your bitter, twisted lies,

You may trod me in the very dirt

But still, like dust, I’ll rise.

 

Does my sassiness upset you?

Why are you beset with gloom?

’Cause I walk like I’ve got oil wells

Pumping in my living room.

 

Just like moons and like suns,

With the certainty of tides,

Just like hopes springing high,

Still I’ll rise.

 

Did you want to see me broken?

Bowed head and lowered eyes?

Shoulders falling down like teardrops,

Weakened by my soulful cries?

 

Does my haughtiness offend you?

Don’t you take it awful hard

’Cause I laugh like I’ve got gold mines

Diggin’ in my own backyard.

 

You may shoot me with your words,

You may cut me with your eyes,

You may kill me with your hatefulness,

But still, like air, I’ll rise.

 

Does my sexiness upset you?

Does it come as a surprise

That I dance like I’ve got diamonds

At the meeting of my thighs?

 

Out of the huts of history’s shame

I rise

Up from a past that’s rooted in pain

I rise

I’m a black ocean, leaping and wide,

Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

 

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear

I rise

Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear

I rise

Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,

I am the dream and the hope of the slave.

I rise

I rise

I rise.